Oh Fuck It Mentality Anonymous

Yes, I admit - I am a chronic sufferer of the "Oh Fuck It Mentality" (OFIM)

OFIM:

A state of not giving a shit. Monkey tilt chasing bottom pair shoving ass clownery. That's what I do. Not always, but for periods of time it happens, and it costs me a fortune.


This state of mind tends to come about after a few bad beats while playing many tables (12+). Suddenly everyone looks like a donk, doom is everywhere, so oh fuck it let's just get it in even though they can't ever be bluffing, or folding, or whatever absurd action I suddenly decide I need them to be doing.

Fuck it.

Unfortunately, I think that was my attitude toward most of my games on Poker Stars when I recently started grinding multiple sites. For the most part I don't know who any of the players are, the note taking software tilts me, so I just wouldn't pay much attention and treat everyone like donks which is fine until I'd inevitably run into a good player, and then I'd get raped. There was some running-like-shit in there as well, but as I've learned - poker doesn't owe you anything, and you got no right to complain if you aren't trying your hardest and I definitely wasn't. I'd have all the cheap PS mtts just kind of splatter/stacked in the side of my screen while I focused on FTP.

Lately though I've been getting up to half of my games through PS and have given them their own proper spaces and have gotten better at focusing on them and am starting to turn what was a depressing losing streak around with a few modest but encouraging cashes



(Just playing the Sunday Million has been costing me $860 a month so really I'm practically even and ready for my 4580% ROI I'll have after finally binking it.)

As far as curing my OFIM I really don't know what to do, except to be more aware of when it is happening and somehow stop it - anyone have any ideas?

By the way, my new favorite album of today has a song that's pretty fitting and awesome-

I'm playing the best poker of my life, and still scheduling lessons

Poker is a brilliant game. And I don't say that lightly...I've always loved games. I cut my teeth on monopoly, passionately honed my devotion in chess, gave them both a toss when I found I could make money on backgammon (a brilliant game when played for money), but ultimately gave those games up for poker.

And it's not just because you can't make money at those other games (though that is a clearly huge factor), poker is just more complex. It's intriguing (though often maddening) to the extent that no matter how well I feel I know it, there's always another level waiting for me, where previous problems seem ridiculous. I don't know if this pattern will hold...but so far it has, astonishingly well.

That's why, no matter how confident I am feeling, I am still very grateful for all the feedback and advice I get from my poker buddies via skype, and I can still be found scheduling lessons to get coaching from other professionals.

Always, no matter what, my advice is to keep getting better. And always be willing to radically change your perception of the game...especially if you learned poker pre internet-age...poker has gotten kind of weird since then.

Cheers and good luck

I donked out of the 100r 6max today, but learned a lesson

Basically, I had a 50x stack w ~12 left and I opened 2.2x w 45s in the hijack, a cautious player flatted in the sb, and the high 3bet % *definitely gonna squeeze guy* squeezed.

At this point the amount in the pot is about a third of my stack and I expected the bb to do this verrry lightly. So I ship obviously. He has the same amount of chips as me so my fEV should be about perfect....(except that no one folds anything anymore if they know what they are doing, because "no one ever has anything")

He tanks...he really does and I'm screaming FOOLLDDD because I have 5 hi.

Finally he calls with 88 and I'm predictably crushed and I'm out.

What I learned:

54s is not good for reshipping simply by virtue of being crushed by the bottom of their range. Even T7s is going to fare better. And they will call with those medium pairs. Nice to have some equity against the bottom of their range when that happens...though even here, if someone is 3betting 100% and folding 90% than you gotta shove ATC...but against rational humans it pays to be a bit more selective because *people don't always do what they should be doin* and sometimes they actually have the (relative) top of their range...the part that can call you.

Now, I say "gotta shove ATC" because that's how the mtt sng mind works and stems from that fact that the skills required to beat those games have nothing in common with the skills of utilizing bigger stack sizes and playing post flop. More credible than the shove would be a smaller 4 bet. The problem is his squeeze was a little biggish and 45s plays terrible so I'd be putting in more than a third of my stack to play as a pure bluff since in the rare occasions he does just freak out and flat, I'm not going to make much very often.

I think the lesson is... stats wise it was the perfect place to ship. Everything was lined up for it to be easy profit but : the cards in our hand weren't right and b. our stack was a little too big.

Now I know I'll get heat from my purist cEV friends for a statement like that... but it would be insane of me to not assign some serious survival value to a 40x stack with two tables left in the 100r.

If it worked though, I woulda had a nice stack... :) 6 on the river woulda been epic too. :)

Ah well. Thank god for tomorrow...

Back on it

I've been winning mtts like it's my job. I haven't been hitting the big scores but I'm schooling hard core and having fun again.

Some of my win-good is almost definitely being generated by the fact that I'm ditching the winter cold in style this year. A couple mtt grinders and I are getting a dope apartment in Buenos Aires January and February...it'll actually be summer there, and I'm expecting to put in a monster grind.

Another big factor in my current momentum is the time I spent sweating my bud Vestvik7... in something like a year and a half he went from scrub to epic beast, and I was fortunate enough to talk to him about a lot of his hands and sweat his play during his latest challenge. I learned a lot..and it has really opened me up from being a mtt sng nit to something a lot laggier and thoroughly dangerous.

Here's my brag hand for the day: Look how easy to make the HS regs spew hard bwahaha, PWNd ya InescapableD
Full Tilt Poker Game #26090940416: $40,000 Guarantee (Rebuy) (197677940), Table 7 - 40/80 - No Limit Hold'em - 17:10:42 ET - 2010/12/03
Seat 1: K3nny_87 (4,668)
Seat 2: 3333631 (4,550)
Seat 3: LEADBOOTS (4,960)
Seat 4: J4bberW0cky (7,735)
Seat 5: InescapableD (7,440)
Seat 6: RemixIt (8,580)
InescapableD posts the small blind of 40
RemixIt posts the big blind of 80
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to J4bberW0cky [Qd As]
K3nny_87 folds
3333631 folds
LEADBOOTS folds
J4bberW0cky raises to 220
InescapableD raises to 640
RemixIt folds
J4bberW0cky has 15 seconds left to act
J4bberW0cky has requested TIME
J4bberW0cky raises to 1,345
InescapableD has 15 seconds left to act
InescapableD has requested TIME
InescapableD raises to 2,050
J4bberW0cky calls 705
*** FLOP *** [5s Qs 4c]
InescapableD has 15 seconds left to act
InescapableD has requested TIME
InescapableD bets 1,600
J4bberW0cky has 15 seconds left to act
J4bberW0cky has requested TIME
J4bberW0cky calls 1,600
*** TURN *** [5s Qs 4c] [2d]
InescapableD has 15 seconds left to act
InescapableD has requested TIME
InescapableD bets 3,790, and is all in
J4bberW0cky calls 3,790
InescapableD shows [Ac 6d]
J4bberW0cky shows [Qd As]
*** RIVER *** [5s Qs 4c 2d] [Qc]
InescapableD shows a pair of Queens
J4bberW0cky shows three of a kind, Queens
J4bberW0cky wins the pot (14,960) with three of a kind, Queens
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 14,960 | Rake 0
Board: [5s Qs 4c 2d Qc]
Seat 1: K3nny_87 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 2: 3333631 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: LEADBOOTS didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: J4bberW0cky (button) showed [Qd As] and won (14,960) with three of a kind, Queens
Seat 5: InescapableD (small blind) showed [Ac 6d] and lost with a pair of Queens
Seat 6: RemixIt (big blind) folded before the Flop

Tumbleweeds

No updates in forever I know. This isn't much of one either, I admit. I'm going to try and do more soon though.

By the way, all you 45 man players who think you need to chase every single chip of cev by shoving ridiculous stacks from any kind of position and giving your opponents absolutely no way to make mistakes beyond which their choices of CALL or FOLD allow them- you've ruined the game.

More on this later, and how I propose we change it.

Well Obviously I Am Insanely Lucky

Just binked my biggest score to date- a few bucks shy of 28k for winning the 150+13 75k and ohhh man it feels good, especially after the grueling heads up match with hitthehole, a very aggressive player. His stats were 50/44/74 (or roundabouts) for pretty much the entire final table. I would've thought he was a donk since his raising was so stubborn and he double or triple barrelled almost every single hand but it was working and he held the chip lead for almost the entire final table like that. Luckily I was more to his left than right so I was able to keep myself afloat through the final table by 3 betting him from the blinds from time to time. Finally he picked up a hand to call me when with I 3 bet shoved my KTs from the bb and he flipped up AQo. The KJx flop was merciful to me though so instead of a less than inspiring 5th place finish I was solidly in contention for the top spots. :)

The heads up portion of the match was pretty sick fun, I have to admit. I was only playing one table, really baked, and I was definitely having a great time. We started HU with him having a 4.5-ish to 1 chip lead but I still had over 30 bbs and wasn't shy about using them since he was 2.1x-ing every button- a strategy I like quite well myself, so I was in familiar territory I felt with guessing hand ranges, and in general playing the hyper aggressive Roshambo game. . . except this time there was a 10k difference between first and second. Once heads up I offered to mitigate the difference in pay outs and he declined which I was fine with. When I later took the chip lead it never came up. :)

Overall I'm very proud of my play HU. I was able to win the ongoing battle between him barrelling me off my hands and me taking advantage of his predictable barrelling at the right times, to finally turn the tide in chip ratios. In the final hand I flopped a flush draw with T7s on a 992 flop and I check called the flop planning to checkraise the turn all in which I did when a King fell but he had flopped trips that time, tabling J9o. The river was a surprisingly merciful 5h though and the game was over and I had won my biggest score to date.

Most weirdly, this win comes at a time when I've been feeling especially lazy and malcontent with poker, mostly due to being totally sick of grinding sit and go's, (even though I think they're awesome and very profitable I just feel like I don't have much more to achieve there other than continuing to grind a nice income, but nothing inordinately spectacular. I've been doing 12 tables really comfortably for awhile and know I could easily manage 16 and then probably more. . . but that isn't fun at all. Switching to mtts isn't something to decide lightly either. I've been researching the graphs of some of the mtt ballers out there and it's really no joke- 10-30k downswings are regular for the guys grinding the higher tournament levels, and I've really been trying to analyze if that's something I want to introduce into my life.

I've decided that I kinda do, and wouldn't you know it but I've been blessed with some exceptionally positive variance lately, and it's always nice to have a little luck when you're trying to get something going!

I'll try and return to this later. The lady is home with goodies. Time to celebrate. :)

Day of the Week Sharkscope Graph

I just checked my sharkscope graph to see which days I was most profitable on and I was a little suprised to not see any losing days, which I had a couple of last I checked a year ago, but also that apparantly on Thursdays I have 90% ROI for just under 1k games. I should really be playing poker right now, but getting high and watching the Three Amigos and eating take out sushi with the girlfriend seemed more appealing. Go figure.

Still, I'm not sure these graphs mean anything. Does anyone?