LOL variance

Having my most painful month in a long while. Last I posted I was trashing my room over a $350 loss. . . enter the 2.5k downswing! I've actually been keeping my cool for the most part since my last brainsplosion at the madness of poker brutality.

The newest and best thing in my life poker wise is definitely Rush Poker. . . only played it once but I felt like a drooling rake back monkey after I earned 2500 ftp points for my 5.5 hour session!
Sngs. . . are hell. Worst thing is documenting it by participating in the January 90 man contest on badbeatspoker.net. Pretty fucking gross!
Username Games Played Av. Profit Av. Stake Av. ROI Total Profit Form Ability /100 Network Filter
J4bberW0cky 29 -$24 $32 -86% -$697 Super Tilt N/A FullTilt <12Hours x
J4bberW0cky 37 -$3 $10 -29% -$119 Super Tilt N/A FullTilt 1/1/2010 1/31/2010 E90-90 S<=15 SNG Only x
J4bberW0cky 67 -$1 $20 -4% -$61 Super Tilt N/A FullTilt 1/1/2010 1/31/2010 E90-90 S20-30 SNG Only x
J4bberW0cky 35 -$21 $40 -49% -$748 Tilt N/A FullTilt 1/1/2010 1/31/2010 E90-90 S36-80 SNG Only x
J4bberW0cky 5,110 $12 $27 44% $59,390 Super Tilt 87 FullTilt x
J4bberW0cky 311 -$5 $31 -7% -$1,521 Super Tilt N/A FullTilt Year2010 x

the little things

Up until tonight January has been pretty crappy. My motivation has been low, I haven't been playing much as I've been too busy swilling this awesome scotch bar that I bought myself for Christmas, delving deeply into gourmet beers, and basically eating like a king from the Medieval Ages.

I played 4 or 5 session in the first ten days of the new year, quietly donking off a hundred or two a session (except for a nice little win at the 5/10 LHE tables- that was fun. Limit Holdem is a great, great game sometimes.).

Today I got straightened out. Instead of lounging around per the norm I actually made it to the gym after my morning smoothie, had a nice work out, got a balanced meal and all that, took my vitamins, some Piracetam, and I think most importantly- I really cleaned off my desk. All those nasty little smudges and piles of sticky tobaccoe and weed fragments- I saved the weed fragments obviously, but I really scoured the area and made my situation as nice as possible. I played a nice 42 game session in an excellent mood - hardly screaming at all - and capped what would have been just an okay night with a very welcome 4th place finish in the 23k K.O. tourney for just over 2k.

Mission accomplished. (except for the obvious failure at clinching the 23k- but if I really want to pursue that line of reasoning than I might as well be bitter that I didn't win every single tournament I played tonight.)

The lesson is- and it's a lesson I know but don't follow often enough- everything counts in poker. Poker is a Meta-Game of sorts. Every detail matters, even though sometimes none of it does. It's BIG like that.

And to really optimize your playing and profit making experience, take the time to set the stage. For me I've realized that this means getting some exercise. I find that my emotions are more balanced and my thinking is more clear after a work out. I'm also tangibly "more awake," which is huge when multi tabling because you have to make a lot of important decisions very quickly sometimes, and your information is often of an esoteric nature at best. Every little detail adds up at the poker table and the quicker and more efficiently you can take it in the better obviously.

I haven't gotten around to making my New Years goals yet, but you can believe that they're going to be more focused on maintaining my attitude and dedication and overall well-being more than they will be about winning some X amount of $.